I have not written a worthwhile entry in quite sometime. I blame this mostly on my lack of inspiration. To say my life is boring is perhaps a bit extreme, but it's definitely redundant to continue writing about this. I'd considered writing about what would essentially be the same thing over, and over, and over...but who wants that?

Thoughts at random:

I have a headache. My shrink prescribed me a new prescription for this, and I'm trying to keep an open mind about it. No meds have worked in the past, but that's no reason to stop believing in miracles.
Barf.

I am terrified of the "best friend" label because it seems that once it's been assigned, that significant person decides they don't like me anymore. I really wish I had this person right now though. Shit's been crazy and stressful and overwhelming and making me feel sick. I went home halfway through the day on Thursday due to starting to have a total nervous breakdown. I can no longer tolerate my job.

Speaking of...I've officially turned in my resignation. My last day will be July 2nd, the day before our trip to Wyoming. This was not the easiest decision to make. Although I knew that it would be impossible to handle the stress of school on top of this particular job, I didn't want to leave my friends. I feel endlessly guilty for leaving them. I'm horrible at maintaining human contact and I'm fairly certain that once I pack up my office and leave for good, I'll rarely see those people again. It's difficult for me to become close to people and establishing trust can be a rather large hurdle. I'm scared to have to do this all over again.

I feel that I should discuss more specific details of my upcoming nuptials. I'll just do links...

The ceremony and reception will be held here
My dress is from this store but I will not show which one, per my lover's request
This is our super-cheesy wedding website

Since this is all being posted on the inter-webs, I feel it necessary to say that this will be a small wedding. Invites had to be strictly sent to close friends and family. We love you all, I promise, it just isn't possible to invite everyone. I really wish I could- there are plenty of people I would love to add to the list. This is a tough economical time for everyone, our families included.

photo by allison johnston.



I'm still really excited about marrying this Pretty boy of mine. The planning is a pain and I'm tired of making decisions about things I don't think should matter much, but at the end of the day this is what I'm looking forward to. Barf again. Apologies.